Almost 25 weeks!

I wake up everyday and think, OK so how far along am I now? And for some reason I always say 30...?? And catch myself, and say wait no its 20 something!! I wish I was 30 something weeks tho! But he needs to stay put because as fabulous as the NICU is it's not somewhere we want to be! Maybe its because this time last year I WAS 30 something weeks. Sheesh. I feel like I've been pregnant FOREVER.

SO long to go...

This pregnancy is very different. Theres the obvious reasons but then just little things he does and that I've had to deal with also. There really isn't any comparison except for the morning sickness...which FINALLY let up! woohoo, only 6 months this time! I have FELT sick...but the actual act of getting sick has stopped (fingers crossed!)

He moves all the time now. I absolutely love it, but sometimes it just plain hurts! He just feels so bony. That's the best way I can describe it. I love feeling him roll around in there tho. He favors my right side...whereas his sister was always on my left side, and usually stuck up under my ribs. He sits lower and only occasionally gets stuck up under my ribs on the right side. Also something pretty strange that never happened before...if I turn a certain way or am laying on my back and go to get up, I've been thrown back down. Its almost like I'm hurting him or some type of spasm. I cant even begin to describe it, its so weird! Its only happened a few times but it freaks me out every time and I just freeze.

I played music for him last night from my phone and he seemed to like it...or it was just too loud and he was kicking for me to stop..lol, I think he liked it tho! I was having a sad moment thinking about Bella and decided to listen to a few "son" songs to change gears.

He kicked a lot to this song.

Being pregnant while having to go through all these "firsts" have been pretty hard. I know the anticipation is a lot worse than the actual days...but its still SO hard. As Bella's birthday and Christmas approaches I find myself crying a lot more. I'm just EXTRA emotional. Ive read where this affects the baby. I sure hope not. I'm trying my best to give him my all, while still grieving Bella and remembering her. I guess that's all I can do is try my best and it'll be what it'll be...

**We also started on the nursery! I cant wait for it to be finished(as sad as it makes me to see all things pink gone!)
I will post pics as soon as it is complete! Which might be a while so dont hold your breath :)