3 months

3 months?! Where has time gone? Austin is growing and getting quite heavy. I swear every morning when I carry him to his swing he feels 10lbs heavier. Maybe im just tired :)

He's changing evey day and hes quite the talker for mommy and daddy. He likes to observe and is usually quiet for others or when I start recording...little stinker!

I gave him some rice cereal 2 different times and he didnt care for it too much. {But he just looks too stinkin cute in his high chair! Thanks auntie} Last night I decided to let him try avacado. I mashed it up and added some boob juice to it. The look on his face was hilarious. Needless to say he didnt want that either. So we'll try again later. Maybe when hes a tad older...and in a better mood! {Grumpy butt} He was pretty tired tho.  Nana, aunt Robbie and Linda came to cook out monday. Tuesday we had to pick up Nonie from the airport and go to my chiropractic appointment and tonight we get to go have dinner with miss Naomi!(one of Bella's nurses)

This weekend we have a cookout at nana and Joe's and and next week grandpa is coming from CA for 8 days and after he leaves Aunt devon comes from CA for a week or so.

LOTS going on...im sure ill write all about it when I can breathe again! I dont like to be busy so im reaally looking forward to August and lazy stress free days just me and the baby. Oh and Ryon too! ;) lol

Did I mention how hard it is for me to share my time with Austin? So for those wondering why I havent been in touch or invited you over, thats why. I still struggle handing him over(momma didnt teach me to share! lol). Im not trying to be rude, I promise!

((I ask for a rewind button for Austin all the time but sometimes Id like to fast forward!))

Lets see...Ive also been teaching him sign language. A few signs we are working on: I love you, mommy, daddy, milk, eat, and the diaper song. (Youtube it, its hilarious and alway stuck in my head) I wish he would stay the size he is now, but be able to sign to me. baby genious. Yep,  thats what im goin for. Ill let you know how it goes! 

from Austin

he has a few things to say... and since he hasnt quite mastered the keyboard he asked if I would record him.



Thats all folks!

Happy Father's Day!

All Austin's idea...I just helped him :)

Where to begin?

So a blog post is long overdue I know, but I just dont know where to start! So today I will start with a picture. My favorite one so far. Well...theyre all great really.

This is Austin at 10 weeks. He is so amazing. I just love the way he smiles when he makes eye contact and realizes he is staring at his momma. He's trying so hard to talk now too. He opens his mouth and moves his tounge all around and sighs. Sometimes he gets so worked up he'll start coughing. lol. When he first starts out its more like a whimper and then the cutest little coos come out. Not much, but just enough to make you smile. Hes also learned to suck on his hand to self soothe. Hasnt quite figured out how to suck his thumb and cant seem to keep a paci in his mouth. Not  bad thing I suppose. I can tell hes going to start sitting pretty soon too as he wants to pull himself up and loves sitting up while I hold his hands. Hes got awesome head conrol and looks around everywhere. He doesnt want to miss anything so hes constantly moving his head back and forth. He MUST be facing outward. Aka the "man hold". (Only I can hold him facing me without fussing) Daddy jokes that hes a "fan inspector" and he counts the revolutions. Similar to Silar from the show Heros. lol.

Melts my heart this little guy...hes just growing toooo fast.

Guess it turned out to be more than just a picture ;)

A baby story

Well Austin is now 1 month old so I suppose its time I post his birth story! A little late I know...

We arrived at the hospital about 15 minutes "late". We were told to be there at 7:30am on 3/25/11, but really it was just to make sure we got a bed. There was no rush really since te doctor didnt arrive till later and I knew that so I took my time getting ready. I didnt sleep at all Thursday night and of course I was so axious I got sick..yaaaay.

When we got to the hospital and checked in I weighed in and did the whole pee in a cup thing for the last time for a while. lol. {I gained exactly 25lbs this time..10 less than with Bella..woohoo go me} When i got to the room i changed into the lovely gown and i heard the nurse ask Ryon if this was our first and he said "no, second." I waited for her to ask about our first but she didnt. I stayed in the bathroom longer and cried...by the time I came out she had left the room. I was hoping she would ask so she would know how stressed we were...its always uncomortable to say no, this is our second, our daughter died last year. Usually you dont want to come back with a response like that because it makes people uncomfortable, but thats something we should have brought up to our l&d nurse. Oh well. A few minutes later 2 new nurses came in and said they were taking care of me instead. They hooked my monitor up, bp, and started my IV {by pricking me a few times!! Ive got goooood veins too!!}. Again, they asked is this your first? No, I replied. In my head I was so angry I didnt tell them but I didnt know how to say it. They were really nice (bummed I didnt write down any of my nurses names!).

At about 9:30am I saw Dr. McCoy, she checked me and I was 4-5cm and having contractions every 3 minutes. They werent bad at all, pain wise, but on the chart they sure looked bad. She looked surprised when I told her they didnt bother me. She put in the pill (Cytotec) and said she would be back in a little bit. At 10:30 she came back and the contractions were getting a little bit more uncomfortable but still managable. She asked if I wanted my water broken then and so i said sure why not! It took her a minute because the bag was thick, but then BAM! I had a tonnn of water. (10:36am) She then asked if i wanted my epidural. Well silly me said nah ill wait a little bit..thinking it would slow things down too much. They got called for an emergency csection and said they would be back to check on me in a bit. Well the second they all walked out of the room the contractions got super painful! I rang the call button and asked for the epidural. It didnt take that long for the anethesiologist to get to my room and Ryon got to stay but they made him sit down across the room (hello? hes chopped his fingers off and didnt pass out or cry, i think he could handle holding my hand) Anyway I was shaking and having painful contractions so it was a little hard to be still. She said I had a boney back, and it sure didnt feel good--I jumped a little :/
It took a bit for it to kick in but once it did I didnt feel a thing! They kept asking me if I was having a contraction and I would say no, and then look at the monitor and it would be a pretty bad one. Ah, good thing for epidurals! I guess they got pretty good and Dr. McCoy got out of the OR just in time...

At 12:09pm (I know this bc my mom and mil stood in the corner and snapped pictures the whole time with a clock above my head, we wont post those tho since they are x rated!) she came in and checked me and said WOW you dont feel that? His head is RIGHT there..we are going to have a baby!

Panic set in and I was in another world. They set up really quick that the nurses didnt even get back from the csection in time so another one came in. She asked if it was my first and Dr. McCoy(thankfully) gave everyone a briefing really quick about Bella. Dr McCoy sat on the end of the bed and I had a contraction and pushed 2 times. She then said "give me one more push, pause, and then ill tell you when to push again." I pushed 1 more time and out popped his head. I was crying so much I forgot she told me to pause so I kept pushing, they said stop! stop! (Oops) :) So I laid there with his head sticking out and gave it 1 more push and he was born at 12:15pm. Talk about a quick labor! I was in such a state of shock, I was expecting it to be a little while. He was 7lbs 10oz, 19.5in long.

The grandparents got to come in and visit before we were transfered to the mother/baby unit. The pediatrician came in and talked to us about Bella and checked him out and said he looks great but we will keep monitoring him, but everything should be fine.

While we were in the hospital they checked his pulse oxygen levels every hour for a while...and then every 2 or 3 hours after that for our entire stay. A few times it wasnt at 99-100 and we were a little nervous. Hearing that thing beep brought back so many memories. Super anxiety!We stayed an extra night just to be sure, but all was well and we got to bring our precious baby boy home on Sunday!

Leaving the hospital I was so sad...I knew I would be. As I sat waiting for Ryon to bring the car, with Austin in my lap I couldnt help but cry. I flashed back to sitting in the wheelchair at Jefferson...empty handed as my baby was being rushed to Winchester. I cried. Tears of JOY and sadness. The ride home was difficult as well and so many songs came on that reminded me of our sweet girl. It was just such a strange feeling I cant even begin to explain.

I was overwhelmed as I expected, so I requested no visitors atleast the first day. If I had it my way, we would not have had any visitors for atleast a few weeks. We needed time to bond with our new baby, to get adjusted to a newborn in the house, and breast feeding on demand. Hard to do with people around wanting to spend time with the little guy. Needless to say the first week or two were really hard on me with all the people in and out of the house. STRESSED to say the least. Things have calmed down around here now.

Hes now just over 1 month old and slowly but surely we are adjusting! Hes a pretty fussy baby when hes awake and until the other day he was nursing just about every hour, so the 3 of us were exhausted! Me and my 2 milk producing buddies that is! lol He sure is growing like a little weed! boys boys boys :)


This is his big sister after she was born...

And Austin... its kind of hard to tell but they look soo much alike

Happy family shot! (minus one)

Coming Home...

2 weeks

Easter

W***

So I was telling Ryon a while ago that I didnt think it would be hard to go back to work like it is for most women. I just thought, i've lost a baby and gone back to work and survived. Coming home from work to an empty house during that time has got to be worse than leaving your baby at home to go to work. I atleast get to come home to a baby this time. Aaannd Ryon will be the one watching him, awesome right?

Well today I scheduled my post partum appointment and after I got off the phone I cried. I cried at the thought of leaving! I dont want to miss anything! :'( In a perfect world id be a SAHM.

This might be harder than I thought...



(I wrote the birth story and saved it as a draft. Once i figure out what happened to it i will post it!)

Baby

So here we are, March 25th...and we are headed to he hospital for the induction. Im glad he waited and my doctor will be the one delivering so we wont have to go thru explaining our past and she knows just how i am feeling. So by the end of the day we will have a brand new baby boy...and i am TERRIFIED and ANXIOUS and EXCITED. That is all. Good bye :)