Baby

So here we are, March 25th...and we are headed to he hospital for the induction. Im glad he waited and my doctor will be the one delivering so we wont have to go thru explaining our past and she knows just how i am feeling. So by the end of the day we will have a brand new baby boy...and i am TERRIFIED and ANXIOUS and EXCITED. That is all. Good bye :)

Still pregnant

Here I am 37 1/2 weeks pregnant. Thankful im not working so I dont have to hear "youre still here?!?" lol

At my 36 week appointment I was 3cm and 80% effaced. Two weeks before that I was 1cm and 80% effaced. My 37 week appointment I had to go to a different doctor because the doctor I usually see is on vacation until the 18th...aand this doctor didnt check. Its not like checking would tell her or us anything but I was a tad curious (ok WE were really curious). I was ok without the check tho because that just meant no cramps and contractions that dont amount to anything. I thought for sure he'd be here by now. However..more time in the oven for his lungs to mature is perfectly fine with me!

He is starting to sleep more and that just makes me so anxious. Ive had tons of horrible nightmares so I always give him a little nudge when he hasnt moved...and again and again until he does! When he comes home I know I will watch him like a hawk to make sure he is breathing and still pink. Im (trying) to sleep now but I dont think you can build up a sleep supply...wouldnt that be nice?? Maybe ill get lucky with a sleepy nonfussy baby! We shall see.

Hes not even here yet and I find myself stressing, not just about his health. I know there will be lots of people that will want to visit our little guy...and I want everyone to meet him but at the same time I want to hibernate...just me, Ryon, and Austin!! I get a little emotional about it actually. Blame it on the hormones...and our past. I feel like we missed out on so much losing Bella and not being able to bring her home that I want every second just us as a little family that should have been for over a year now. That wont happen and its ok with me...atleast thats what I keep telling myself! lol :) I know I cant keep him to myself forever. We will not having people stay the night at the house tho. I feel a little guilty about this but who wants to hear a crying newborn at 12am, 3am, 5am? Ok, besides me :) I just think that is something for Ryon and I. I just dont want to tiptoe around the house or worry about visitors late at night. Im hoping I wont be TOO exhausted and this will be our special bonding time. Im sure our families will understand!? Right guys?

So now that ive got that off my chest...

Tomorrow is 3/11/11 and that sounds like a good birthday to me! Got out my exercise ball tonight and tomorrow I think we will venture out of the house..maybe do a little walking and some last minute shopping possibly? :) I feel like its going to happen soon...

Will keep you all posted!